So slow

My recovery is going so slowly! I am finding it difficult to stay motivated to keep tracking etc. I've reached the point where I'm healthy enough that I don't drop from fatigue at the end of the day, but not so much that I can get any exercise without feeling super drained, so I am having insomnia again. Exercise definitely helps with that, and getting fresh air, but I still have a sore throat and congestion, and it's cold out. Yesterday was sunny at least, so I went for a short walk that was quite pleasant! Today is grey, -4° but feels like -12° with windchill, so the same walk was not as nice. Still I got myself out there at least.

My kid's gym teacher had them doing workouts from Mad Fit in virtual school, and they seem quite doable (she has some workouts which are "apartment friendly" - no jumping, no equipment) so I am going to try starting my day with one of those tomorrow.

Still so tired

Very hard waking up in the morning! Still with the sore throat/headache/sore eyes as well. Ugh. Doing very minor amounts of exercise at this point. A friend is setting me up with the Peloton app; apparently they have some good beginner conditioning exercises. 

Yesterday I did a mini 10-minute workout at lunch (situps, lunges, etc.) and today I went for a walk. 

Here's Tuesday's nutrition:

And today's:

Hopefully these are legible since I'm doing this on my phone!

Monday's log

Started the day with some low-key stretching and exercises. This morning all I managed was stretching because I overslept!

Eureka

Seems like fitday is still working (for now) in the mobile web version... will see how long this lasts! This is the first day I've gotten close to a normal amount of food intake and any exercise at all, so I'm pretty pleased to get such a perfect balance. 

Recovering from Covid

Yep, I got covid. An xmas present from my ex. Grr.

Anyway, I have lost 4 lbs over the past 3 weeks, all of it muscle mass though I'm sure, since it was lost by not eating and lying in bed with a fever.

But I'm feeling pretty normal now, just worn out and stiff from lack of exercise and lack of nutrition. Need to start feeding myself properly and exercising.

I did do exercise at home a couple of days, when it was my son who was sick and I was well, just not allowed to leave the house due to quarantine, but then bam I was sick as well and just going downstairs was too much effort! Haven't even been great about taking my vitamins either, I have just been withering away.

For now, my goal will be to maintain that 4 lb loss while converting some of my flab back into muscle. It's nice to have lost some bulk (I'm currently wearing a pencil skirt that had been too snug for my comfort previously), so I'd like to stay where I am in terms of body size, just firm things up because I feel like a blob of lifeless goo. 

Oh, and it seems like my long term fitness tracker, fitday.com, has given up the ghost entirely in the past week. All of my logs are gone. I was using it from 12 October 2005! Augh

Crappy day

 Having one of those days. Pandemic is getting to me. And then a friend said to me, "you know what you need..."

Hot tip: never, ever say "you should" or "you need" unless you are ready and willing to procure that thing.

This was the worst when my kid was a baby, and childless single friends would say dumb stuff like, "you need to make time for yourself! Plan a spa day!" Oh, are you willing to pay for that spa day, and provide childcare? No? Well how is it supposed to happen then? You think it never occurred to me that a spa day would be lovely, and that's the only reason I haven't done it?

Honestly 90% of the time people know what they need, they just aren't able to get it. 

And reminding people that they aren't able to get things they really, really need is just rubbing salt in the wound.

Grr.

I think it is once again time to go full hermit mode. Interacting with people means either seeing happy families (grumble) or happy couples (grrrr) or people going out and about throwing caution to the wind (GRAAAAGH) or getting shouted at by neurotic judgy doomsayers (augh!) or self-righteous people who lack empathy saying "you have no right to complain because someone else is worse off" (seethe) none of which is what I need right now.

Even Instagram, formerly a haven of lovely loaves of bread and birdwatching posts, is now full of restaurants announcing closures, either out of caution, or because their staff members have already tested positive. I just can't handle the constant misery. Augh.

Anyway this blog might get busier as I try to divert myself away from other things. We'll see.

Monday Foods

Much better with nutrients today! Started the day with blood pudding (look at that B12!) and ended it with a swiss chard salad. The kid didn't much care for blood pudding, so in the future I'll just make it for me and he can just have eggs.

I realize this blog is a bit dull but it's mainly for my own accountability and is anyone reading anyway? Ha! Maybe things will get more interesting Friday when I'm off work till January.