Conflicting feelings

Got my first “lucky you” on the weekend. 

As in, lucky to get stomach flu so you lost some weight. 

The thing is, I wouldn’t mind a simple “you look great” or something. I know some people are bothered by any comment about weight loss, but I don’t mind a straight up compliment, especially if someone thought it was a result of hard work! 

I don’t feel lucky to have had days of diarrhoea and vomiting followed by weeks of upset stomach. 

I do fully intend to keep the weight off now that it’s gone though. 

It was really just “that last 5 lbs” that everyone struggles with, but losing them really does make a difference. I like how my clothing feels. I like how I look. I feel vaguely guilty for liking these things, because of the bombardment of messages from the media that basically say women should never feel good about themselves, including—especially?—if their feelings are connected to weight loss, because we’re supposed to prioritize other people’s feelings above our own. 

Hence conflicting. I have been feeling under the weather for over a month now, and I want to enjoy the one positive thing that came out of that. I hate how hard it is to just feel my feelings independently of the world’s expectations and impositions!